LANGUAGE

Over the past few months, I’ve committed to pursuing my purpose and living my life intentionally. I've been educating myself on the type of woman I desire to be and the lifestyle I want to live. I’ve invested in branding [for my blog] thanks to Kheiston Boone, and in general. Understand that your brand is you! How you present yourself, speak, look, is all apart of your brand. I had to truly understand that and am working to become it. When you start to understand your purpose, you'll want to position yourself accordingly.

About a month ago I watched a sermon by Jerry Flowers Jr. from the Try Me Series, entitled The Language of a Queen.  As you can imagine, the sermon was packed with gems, but a couple of things stood out to me. He said - and I paraphrase, "you keep attracting parasites because

...thieves do not rob empty houses."

Jerry Flowers Jr.

He went on to say that there is something buried on the inside of you that needs to be unveiled and the devil is cowering in fear, so he has to kill it. "The serpent is after the breath because he doesn't want you to transition into what God's called you to be." Proverbs 18:21 "death and life are in the power of the tongue." The enemy knows what you speak, you ultimately believe; so if it's all negativity, sis guess what? You're feeding into the lies you've told yourself! In order to be where God needs you, there is a certain way you have to show up just like how sis looks her best for a job interview because she is tryna secure her bag. That is why transformation is so important. It's not about being perfect, it's about growth. 

I did my first Instagram Live video on Friday, August 28th. As nervewracking as it was, I must admit, I thoroughly enjoyed it. It showed me how much I have embraced change, and stepped outside of my comfort zone. If it’s one thing that I learned about myself, is that when I have set my mind to do something, it has to get done added to the fact that I'd already made the IG post and put myself out there! I was nervous because of my fears. Then I had to remind myself, that it's my page and can’t nobody fire me! Unless I'd infringe upon IG’s terms and conditions, I could do my own thing! I was happy for the engagement but more so happier that I did it. The night before, my friend had reassured me that this was the stepping stone to my motivational speaking journey, and I remembered thinking 😱 what!? As much as I dislike the pressure of presenting myself in front of a crowd of people, I’ll come clean, I actually enjoy speaking to individuals. There’s a level of peace that I get from having in-depth conversations with others apart of the reason why I do not like small talk and fake interactions … too much work for nothing.

After my IG live, I had a couple friends text me and say how proud they were and some who said that they needed to hear what I spoke about. That in and of itself made my heart full. It’s not about the crowd for me, but the message. In the wee hours the next morning, I woke up and saw a lengthy message from a dear friend of mine. In her message, she said, “I realize that when you start to get in tune with God and move in His purpose for you then there’s a certain language you speak”. Her message moved me deeply; my aim for the live was to put myself out there and share with others what inspired me. Even though what I said was from the heart, I knew that my message wasn’t coming from me. I had been praying and asking God to use me for so long but was afraid when He was telling me to move.

Apart of my fear came from knowing that I wasn't and still am not the holiest person in the room. But I've rest assured knowing that my intentions are pure and that He can use an imperfect vessel like me to get the message across. I understand that I may not always get it right, but in the meantime, I can clean up my brand and learn the language.