Growth

Happy Tuesday my loves! 💕

Yesterday morning I woke up to a Google Photos notification reminding me about memories from October 5th, 2017. Before opening the notification, I tried to remember exactly what went on three years ago, but nothing came to mind. When I opened the notification, I saw a slew of photos from when we were renovating my fake apartment. I had the feeling of nostalgia and then I felt proud of where these last three years have brought me.

Of course, I started going through the rest of the years, and cringed at some things, but was more proud of myself for the woman I've become. 2017 for me was the start of a shift in my life. It was the year I got my nursing license, the year I moved into my fake apartment; the year I also started to shift my thinking to becoming more responsible so that I could start making the moves I saw fit. As I was reminiscing, I remember the countless times that I wanted to quit my job because I felt incompetent and that I was not cut out to perform as a registered nurse. I remember the times I looked at my space and even though I was excited, it felt empty, and like I was moving slowly.

Then it hit me! GROWTH. Growth is essential for one's development; with growth comes chapters. Not every chapter will be the same or a continuation of the last. Sometimes growth requires us to cut off certain things, and start anew. I can say in the past couple of months, I have vowed to continue growing and evolving in my purpose. Stepping out of my comfort zone and delivering on this level, was a level of growth that I didn't think I'd be ready for, but I had to step foot into this space.

I was afraid to grow when I feared what was ahead of me. I don't know about you, but I've realized that when I need to move forward, I start to get uncomfortable. Things don't feel right, I get uneasy, I am miserable! Have you ever stayed put in a job that wasn't for you? And not even because of the money but because of the principles and values that were missing? And you find yourself walking out of the building every day wondering why in the hell you're still there? Yea, that's the opposite of growth, that's stagnancy. No one holds us back from progress than ourselves and for varying reasons that hold very little validity.

If it's one thing I'm grateful for during this season, is that I now know to give myself what I deserve. I don't mean material things. I mean, allowing myself to rediscover peace and a healthy mindset; and that alone for me is growth. Any growth is growth just the same.

How have you grown in the past year?