Disruption

So two nights ago, I was catching up on my reading ... Believe Bigger by Marshawn Evans Daniels, to be exact. It was getting my whole life together. I got to a point where she spoke about what it's like to pursue purpose.

It's funny because the section that hit me was so unexpected that I had to pause and really assess my life. When I decided to pursue purpose, there was disruption. I felt uneasy and unsettled. I felt like there was a change that NEEDED to happen. I didn't know at the time, but I was on the verge of a breakthrough.

"Disruption ultimately triggers divine reinvention in our lives."

- Marshawn Evans Daniels

After my reading last night, I said a prayer and went to bed. Girl, tell me why I had the most unsettling and nerve-wracking dream. I don't remember how the dream started, but I remember how it ended. Story Time... I was tied up and the person who tied me up wasn't really paying me attention, but was busy. The dream got weird when I tried to scream. I was screaming and when the person who was on their way to rescue me got closer, my voice was gone.

Like full on sore throat, hoarse voice, no sound ... nothing. I was in full blown panic, because I could see the person's shadow getting closer, but I was in such fear that they wouldn't save me because I could no longer call out. Needless to say I strained my hoarse voice until I groaned loudly in my sleep! My entire slumber was disrupted! I was confused, woke up in a frenzy, was sweating. Just not a cute situation.

Immediately I'd thought, "wow, I need to google what this dream means". And then within a split second I heard a still small voice say "the devil is trying to shut you up but keep screaming until someone hears you". I interpreted it to mean, that I have a story/testimony/truth to tell, and hell is bubbling over with rage at the breakthoughs that will come from this truth. I personally believe, that after my revelation via reading, it was God's way of affirming that my visions were in alignment with His plans.

I hope the message is getting across to you. You may have something to say/showcase, but you are afraid. You maybe be afraid that it'll backfire, or that you will fail. But I believe God is disrupting your norm, to let you know not to give up. Keep screaming! The devil wants you to keep quiet. But you have to learn to be comfortable when God is ready to disrupt you.

It's nothing but divine reinvention of who He is calling you to be.