CONFUSION vs. CONFIRMATION

When it comes from God it'll come with confirmation; when it's not from God it'll cause confusion.

Do y'all agree?

I can attest to this on so many levels. Whether it had to do with a job, a relationship, friendship, any kind of ship to be honest. A couple of posts ago I spoke about not forcing it. Many times we want something so bad that we'll do just about anything to make it work. Even it means that we're miserable, or feeling guilty while engaging in said thing. I have the mindset that if I'm supposed to be doing something, I'll feel settled while doing it. I shouldn't feel like I'm fighting for my life if something is meant for me. Now, it doesn't mean that it won't take hard work and dedication; it just won't cost me my sanity.

I was chatting with a friend a couple of weeks ago, and we were just going back and forth about how God moves. Have you ever noticed that when you're in alignment, things miraculously shift in your favor? Sometimes you don't realize it until you're settled in it. Hindsight is 20/20, no pun intended. I started reflecting on my life and thinking of all the things that I rushed into because I felt like I had to, not knowing that God was aligning me according to His plan. All the odd jobs I took after my first degree, were in my opinion 'come ups'. I felt the need to continuously seek 'better' because I felt worthless and like I was being judged, by no one in particular, might I add, because I was a new grad with no job. Basically, I allowed my feelings of inadequacy and my insecurities to determine my worth.

Last year I wanted to build a brand so badly, I jumped at the first opportunity that looked promising. I eventually got lost in the act, without being true to myself about 'my why'. As much as great intentions won't pay my bills, I knew that chasing money wasn't going to bring me joy and fulfillment.

"For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evil, and in their eagerness to be rich some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pains."

- 1 Timothy 6:10 NRSV

I wanted to build a business to say I did it, and to feel great knowing that I had a 'fall-back' option, but in the process, I felt discombobulated. I did not feel grounded and it didn't serve a higher purpose for me. I don't think I felt that much anxiety in all my years of living. I'm not even trying to be dramatic.

"And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose."

- Romans 8:28 NRSV

While investing in my branding course, I came across other women who were also pursuing the calling on their lives, and they too had the same end goal. THAT was my confirmation. As Patrice Washington says, CHASE PURPOSE ... not money.

Those feelings of inadequacy and insecurities had crept back in and caused me to make rash decisions based on a short term feeling. That's why some of us end up in relationships that we had no business jumping into, and then we wonder why we end up lost and confused. It may look and feel good in the beginning but if you don't have the right intentions, it will forever be a detriment to you. I may not have a thousand people reading my blogs daily, hell, I don't even have a hundred. But guess what, I have at least one person reading, and at least another one telling me that they gained something from my posts. And that's all that matters.

Pray about the promises God has for you. Don't try to rush His plans. Seek wisdom, and know that when it's ordained, He will confirm it.